Just what the title says really, socialising exhausts me. I don't know if that's because I'm an introvert or if it's part of my depression that I have to 'act' happy and ok but my word does it tire me out! I did just short of 5 hours today and I'm honestly done in. I … Continue reading Socialising exhausts me.
I've had a conversation with someone today about me. I've started a course and doing a work placement as a part of it. Been doing the course for three weeks, completed one assignment and been at the placement for two. I had a slight problem at the placement so (thanks to my CBT earlier this … Continue reading Someone believes in me!
*This post may be scatty, bear with me, I'll get there* There was once someone in my life who I got quite close to. It was a relationship but in hindsight I probably am not the best person to be in a relationship, I'm not good at them, I struggle being with people and I … Continue reading “Sort it out!”
It is here. The intimidating and mystical tomorrow has arrived. The day everything is postponed to but never arrives. Well it's time to bite my lip and bear down because its here and I'm taking it on. I'm not taking on the world - I'm not that brave - but I am vowing to myself … Continue reading It’s tomorrow…!
I realise I'm posting really negatively. I'm spewing out my depression, my struggles and all my bad thoughts. I know there is no one reading this but in the event someone stumbles on my blog in a strange ramble through the Internet I'm coming across a bit of a mentalist. My instinct is to apologise … Continue reading Sorry, not sorry.
I'm sat in tesco carpark. Unable to drive home just yet. Can't face it. I don't have the energy. I don't think I mentioned it but I had another "let's start again" episode 2 weeks ago. These start again episodes are times when I give myself a kick up the arse and think "that's it, … Continue reading There was a lady sat in a carpark…
I'm not doing good today. The deadline to my job applications was September 8th. I waited with baited breath (what does that even mean?) for an email to invite me to an interview. I must have checked that email account about 30 times an hour. Tried to distract myself, tried to keep busy, tried not … Continue reading Trying hard not to sink…